last night a friend told that i'm being very negative about myself and most things that happen to me. well, can't help it i guess. maybe it's just a phase that i've to go through every now and then. i worry a lot about things that i say and do to people. meaning i obsess with every mistake and wrong word that i do and utter. on the other hand, when friends do or say unimaginable things, i make excuses for them. 97% of the times anyway. i'm an indecisive person. i never know what i truly want, but i always know what i don't want. that could be because there is a lot that i want, and i'm not sure which one i should want most. i also know the things that i don't want are things that would harm me or those closest to me, but i might not know everything that is not good for me. in which case, some of the things that i want might actually belong to the category of things i should not want, which makes me even more unsure of what i want. i'm not being coherent or even making sense. well, what i want most at this very minute is to become a psychiatrist, so than no one can call me crazy and tell me i should see a shrink.