i got myself new sweaters. huma took hana and i to square one mall in saugus, which was very nice of her, and i bought some stuff that i really needed. it's a nice mall, i wouldn't mind going there again. i didn't have a chance to visit charlotte russe and some other stores.
i finally learnt how to use the ssh file transfer thing. first diah told me how, then amir showed me, then usman. all in one day. they're nice people, always ready to help out.
i talked to anand today. i miss talking to him and hanging out with him. we used to talk a lot over the phone, now it's only once a week.
lately, i feel like i've been acting like a real jerk. i've acted irrationally towards people who had never done me any harm, made some unthoughtful and coarse remarks, tried to detach myself from people who needed me, and have just been completely insensitive to those around me. i'm so sorry. i don't know what else to say. i'm really sorry for being such an ass, i feel really guilty about it. this is not me, and i hate it when i don't recognize myself. bare with me please, while i try to get myself back in track.